Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

I slowed down on this blog because I was supposed to be updating Ella and Seren's blogs but there are some things going on with me that can't really be said by them because they weren't there or because it doesn't really have anything to do with them. 

I went to Pittsburgh over the weekend.  Heather was headed that way for a wedding and Courtney and I agreed to come too.  Then Carlee and Jill joined in the fun!  It was so nice to all be together without having to worry about wedding stuff.  I was really grumpy before I left b/c I was so anxious to leave and have a whole weekend with my friends.  I did miss Ella and Seren a lot, especially by the time Sunday rolled around, but it was pretty nice just to focus on myself and not them for a change.  I had so much good food and had such a great time.  I don't think I've laughed that hard for so long in months.  A big thank you to Shannon and Brad for being such great hosts.  An extra special thank you to Brad for dealing with so many girls all by himself!

It's a good thing I had that weekend to relax because the next 2 months are going to be very stressful.  Just thinking about it really starts to overwhelm me.  I have birthday parties to attend and plan, a bridal shower to throw and plan, a wedding, a graduation...I just don't know how I'm going to get all of these things done in addition to the everyday things that are piling up around me.  Our yard is our disaster.  It desperately needs some love and attention but we just don't have any free weekends.  Plus, I am starting an internship this summer so I'll be gone at least 2 days a week.  My school work isn't getting done, though I did just pass my stats class.  At least I can't skip out on my workout...I signed up for pilates and will need it to help de-stress. 

To top it off, Seren and Ella have been especially needy lately.  Seren is going through the phase where she just wants me around her all of the time and poor Ella is getting jealous.  As much as I would like to sit down and play with them and hold them all of the time, I have so many other things I need to do.  I feel bad for them but still, it is draining on me.  I would like to have a moment to myself...or at least a moment of silence.  The whining and crying is a constant background noise at my house.  Jason tries to help but he is exhausted after work and I feel bad asking him to do more work while I relax.  Maybe we should start taking turns. 

I long for the day when the girls can play outside on their own so I can get some housework done.  Maybe now wasn't the best time to get another degree or take on an internship.  But then, I don't think there will ever be a "good" time.  And I know there are a lot of other worse things that could be happening to me right now, I'm just feeling like I bit off more than I can chew and I'm hoping that writing it all out will make everything seem a bit lighter.

Meanwhile, if anyone would like to borrow two young children for the week, I'd be more than happy to lend mine out.  They are great kids - as long as you can give them 100% of your undivided attention!